Who am I??? Kaun hu mein???

What is blogging? Well.. For me it is a means of communicating my feelings and views… But now I discovered the potential danger of blogging.. Not danger exactly but I realised that blogging has a negative side as well… Through my blogs I have revealed my character….my opinions…my attitudes… and in short… myself… I got a few praises for my writing (I emphasise FEW L ) and I was quite happy with that… I even got a few friends because of my blog… But recently I met a guy online who claimed he has read all my blogposts and it must be true since he could quote word to word from my blog. Though he didn’t seem a very interesting person I was happy that someone took so much interest in my writing. I didn’t accept his friend request because I wanted to know him better. I think this hurt his ego and he started asking me why I wrote such lies in my blog… You know what?? From my blog he derived my character as ‘A girl who is calm… become friends quickly… and doesn’t argue…’. Gosh!! That is so NOT me.. Is that what I conveyed through my blogs?? Is that how people who read my blog interpret it?? Then he started getting a little insulting and irritating and so I decided to add him to my ‘ignore list’ and guess what?? He has already added me… wow!! He pesters me and now he has blocked me.. Great!! Everything becomes the other way round.. Well.. Either way the communication has ceased so let’s just say… alls well that ends well (this is the actual quote ryte?? ).

Then I made a new post and within a day I got a comment from another guy… Awesome!!! I was really happy because usually my post would have to wait atleast a month to get even a small comment… I opened the comment with great expectation… ooof!! It was long.. Indeed really long compared to my usual comments which would be just “good work”, “nice writing” etc.. But the whole comment was just SOMETHING.. I described it as ‘something’ because it was so strange and confusing that I didn’t even know if it was a positive or negative comment… Ahh.. Whatever..at least I got a comment nah?? I was happy..
Then my sis commented…. I was really really really really happy… and then the same person commented again.. This time it was directed at my sister…about how she should learn to write like me.. That was the most idiotic and crazy thing I have ever heard… my sister has a way of writing which no one can ever beat.. especially her second blog truly brings out her talent.. And this idiot thinks she should change that and write like me… ME!!!

Then I understood what kind of people read my blogs…. People who don’t even understand what I write.. People who can’t distinguish between a masterpiece and an amateur’s work.. I felt so depressed that I wanted to give up writing forever…..

Then I went back and read my first blog… the only one that was a real success.. And I realised maybe if I just keep on writing when the urge possesses me I’ll be able to create something good.. And I decided not to bother about comments anymore.. Whatever you may write and how well you may write there will be no one who will truly understand it.. And at the end of it all it doesn’t matter whether anyone understands me.. Because I know myself really well.. I know who I am.. I know how I make relations.. I know my strengths and weaknesses.. And I am the perfect judge for my character.. So who cares what people say??? Sometimes it does hurt when people misunderstand you and you feel as if you wanna put them right (I was blocked by that first guy before I could correct his opinion). But do I gain anything from that?? I will still be the same Jeeta whatever others think of me.. So the answer to my title ‘who am I?’ can only be answered by myself.. And I’m not gonna expect anyone else to answer it….

PS: The good part about all this misunderstandings and comments is that I got a topic to write about.. See.. In life everything happens for a reason…
By the way do listen to the song ‘who am I? kaun hu mein’ . It’s kinda sweet and romantic.. But nice..

SHAYAD YEHI HAI PYAAR…..

What is love??? Love is that bond which binds two strangers so close together that it makes them forget the world.. makes them believe that no one else exists and nothing else matters… They go off to a dream planet where the only inhabitants are both of them… A place so exclusive for them that no one else is welcome… where no one else can approach…
What is friendship?? Friendship is that bond which never binds anyone… a bond which can be shared with everyone… a bond that allows freedom… a bond that is not jealous… a bond that is not selfish…. A bond which is often mistaken for love…. But which is entirely different from love….
And you know what’s the difference between love and friendship?? Love tries to destroy friendship while friendship tries to accommodate love…

As I have often said, my personal experience with love is null… all I know about it is what I see around me… and as far as that is concerned I am not much in favour with this idea of being in love…
As you know most of my blogs are based on my personal stories… so let me tell you my story.. I have a friend.. A great friend… maybe not a very very close friends because we have known each other only for two years.. But still a very great friend of mine… so this friend (it’s a guy by the way) is a very friendly fellow and hence he has a lot of friends… everyone likes his company… they love talking to him… and he’s very popular… So life is going on cool when suddenly he falls in love.. Or rather he realises he has fallen in love with his childhood friend… Great!!! We are all happy for him because this is exactly the same girl we have been teasing him with.. So wow!! Finally they are together… yippee!!

But…. This changes everything.. He is no longer that friendly guy anymore.. He becomes all serious.. He cuts off all contacts.. No messages.. No phone calls… not even a smile… he has just totally forgotten everyone… he is no longer interested in anything except his girl… he has finally got the person of his dreams and so everyone else becomes useless…

Is this love?? Is this the romantic feeling everyone waits for and talks about so much.. Is forgetting your friends and hurting them so painfully the definition for love?? This is not a single example… it is something that happens almost all the time… maybe not in such a severe way.. But everyone who falls in love ceases to give importance to friendship…

But friendship still grows even when its hurt… which is why all his friends still contact him… still try to keep in touch with him… so isn’t friendship a much more beautiful and meaningful relationship than love… but no one will ever understand that… because in love there is glamour and passion while friendship is just a “taken for granted” relationship… I hope I will be able to hold on to friendship even when love binds me… and I hope that everyone realise that both are equally important to make our lives beautiful….